relaxing..............

I was so hyped up inside about the possibility of actually going to the Grammy's.
Not as a nominee,..... that would be too much and too fantastic to dream for,........
just as a member of the audience,......for starters.

But the dream cloud has floated gently to the ground,......
And I watched the Grammy's on cable like most of the world..........

and all the deep hopes and dreams vanish into the sunlight of reality.

But as the sunlight comes on.........
I realize that I may never get any moment in my life to magically "celebrate" being me in front of lights and cameras and international satellite dishes...........

And my breath inside me goes up in alarm and I think "Oh no!"
And as soon as I say that, the logic calm warmth of the sunlight seeps into my brain
and I think......... "So what?" ..... calmly.

It dawns on me........ relax.
The celebration in being yourself,....... is to be the best yourself you can possibly be.
So I still intend to dream of the Grammy's etc,.....and reach for the stars,.....
However,....I can relax in the truth that the celebration of all that I try and be and am
Is to be,....... to create,..... to strive,...... to envision,......... to try
To be
As me as I can.

I'm hoping God is aiight with that,.........
So with His help
On I go.